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A Human Rights Film Project - Cross Artform Format
Confronting Contemporary & Future

Film | Installation | Expanded Cinema | Germany | 2018 - ongoing|
currently 81 min.

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"I wanted to live" is an up-to-the-minute cinematic challenge, which is related to the documented death of more than 35,597 refugees and migrants, who have lost their lives within, or on the borders of Europe since 1993. It is a new approach to adapt data for the cinema screen, as well as in an installation context for art galleries, museums, schools, church-walls, and other mobile projection. And by that to investigate the potentialities of cinema as a room for memorial, reflection and later, followed consequently by a clearer political attitude. Putting strong emphasis on the respect for the dead this silent work serves as digital memorial.

Produced & directed by Christian Alexander Rogler, co-produced by Greta Amend, this work is supposed to prove that every private person is able to do something for human rights and peaceful coexistence, even by simple means, and to encourage others to do the same.


The film aims to raise awareness on this issue throughout Europe and to animate audiences and politicians to reconsider European immigration policies in order to develop a human vision on migration. The sheer number of deaths documented in "I wanted to live" is powerful in itself, yet each individual casualty must not get lost in statistics. The human dimension is what makes the words projected on the screen so potent; by giving attention to the very real challenges, struggles and suffering that migrants face, it helps the target audience to relate to and engage with the situation.


It is at the same time a innovative approach to cinema itself. "I wanted to live"is the first film ever using and consisting solely of a data stream worldwide. Data based on the UNITED list of deaths.

      Screenings & Exhibitions 2022:​

        Izmir Refugee Film Festival. Loop screening, 12-16 April 2022 at French Culture Centre’s Exhibition                      Hall  (Institute Français de Izmir).

​Screenings & Exhibitions 2021:

MOSCOW INTERNATIONAL VIDEO ART FESTIVAL NOW&AFTER, Sept. 7-26th 2021, at Moscow Contemporary Art Center Winzavod in the historical Red Hall.

Screenings & Exhibitions 2020:



KLOSTERNEUBURG MONASTERY, Austria, annual exhibition 2020 "Was leid tut", EXTENDED: 30. Apr.- 15. Nov. 2021

Nomination for St. Leopold Peace Prize for humanitarian engagement in the arts 2020 

IZMIR INTERNATIONAL REFUGEE FILM FESTIVAL / İzmir Uluslararası Mülteci Film Festivali, 14.-18. Apr. 20   

MOVIESTHATMATTER FILM FESTIVAL, Den Haag, 20. - 28. Mar. 2020 (postponed to 2021)

AFRICA FILM FOR IMPACT FESTIVAL, Abuja, Nigeria, Nov. 3rd to 7th. 2020

Screenings & Exhibitions 2019:

Human Rights Film Festival Berlin, Sept. 19 (World premiere).

Videoart Festival Berlin, Sept. 19

This human world - Internatonal Human Rights Film Festival Vienna, Nov. 19

Karama Film Festival, Jordan 2019 - 12-hour-screening at the Royal Cultural Center, Amman,  Dec. 2019

Galerie Gesellschaft, Berlin Mitte, Sept. 19 

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